Grief Fruits by M.L. Rengots

For Cody, for me

RECIPE FOR DEAD BROWNIES
Buy a box of brownie mix.
Set aside the ingredients.
Fill the empty box with dirt.
Bury the box.
Combine ingredients above your brownie box grave.

SONG TO LET GO
Catch some wind in your hands.
Sing a sad song to the wind.
Release the wind when you stop feeling sad.

SPELL FOR SELF-LOVE
Construct a nest of your own clothing.
Stand in its center and strip.
Lie down on the warm clothes you removed.
Try to love every version of yourself.

SPELL FOR DEAD LOVE
Dress yourself in the deceased.
It can be a shirt, a photo, a song.
Lie down in their old room or a place you went together.
Try to love the worst version of them.

PHOTO TO EXPOSE DEAD LIGHT
Cut off a piece of the Sun.
Take out your loved one’s death announcement.
Cut out their name.
Replace it with the Sun.

PHOTO TO SEE YOURSELF
Print a photo of yourself.
Cut out your face.
Hold the photo against the sky.
The sky should be your new face.

Artist: Martin O’Neill

M.L. Rengots lives and writes in New Orleans with her feline familiar and assorted flora. She holds a B.A. in English Creative Writing from Louisiana State University, but no one cares. M.L. enjoys spooks, spirits, and statement earrings. Her least favorite sensation is that of wet socks. You may find M.L. sitting in her porch swing on any given day, but she would prefer that you didn’t.